Death by Fireing Squad

I feel like the biggest whore on the face of the earth right now.

I cant believe I did the things I did.
Tore between a friend and another friend
I chose one over another.
And in the end Im the one they both murder in cold blood.

One will forever hate me
One of my only true friends Ive ever known
The one that was there when my entire world burts into flames
licking at my sanity till I thought I would perish of heat alone.

And one that I thought I could call on for anything.
A shoulder to lean on
A friend to protect me
A person I mattered to.

So here I sit, on cold pavement
looking at a sky and seeing nothing for the second time in my life

Alone again
With no one to turn to
No one to love and be loved by
And no more friendship

I deserve nothing less then this
For I was in the middle and I did what I thought was right
I trusted one friend more then the other
I open my big fat mouth and told her things that can never be taken back.

Boy was I a dumb ass